The second of the #kinderchat January blog posts is to share a goal I have for 2014. I try not to make resolutions anymore, as I tend to make lofty ones that are far too easy to break. A few years ago, I looked at my life and started to analyze where I need to repair things. My list was not long, but it did have challenges. I needed to focus on: fixing my finances, creating a living space that I could maintain order in, get into a more organized school space, become more confident about who I am, and finally, work on losing the excess weight I’ve been carrying since my dad’s passing 13 years ago. To date, I have achieved (in one way or another) all of those goals, but one.
Losing weight is a struggle for me; it always has been. I am an emotional eater. I find comfort in my lonely moments, stressful times, and joyful experiences by eating something delicious and not nutritious. I need to change. I need to find something to replace that emotional connection I have with the jar of peanut butter, block of cheese, box of Glosette raisins and more.
So my first goal for 2014, is NOT to lose weight. My goal is to find something new to do. I am looking around my house and searching my life to find things I can do to keep those hands of mine away from food when I am emotional. I’ve started a list already: iPad games, video games, playing piano, colour, build Lego. I know that people will tell me “go for a walk, do some exercise to relieve stress” but that is not what I consider a stress reliever. I’m not saying I will be a sloth. I plan to add some activity to my life, but first, FIRST, I have to work on my hands. I can’t have them reaching for food, so that, dear friends, is my first goal of 2014.
Okay, that and leaving school early, but that’s for another post……..